Why me?

I have asked this question many times in my head
...over and over again. Why me?
Why did I have to go through all of this
Why me
Why did I have to inherit this disease
Why me
Why have I been battling back and forth
Why me
Why can't it just stay away forever
Don't visit me every day, every other day, week, month, year
Why me

Nobody understands me
And I don't understand them
My disease is my secret
I will carry it to my grave
Or should I reach out and help anothers
Since I know more now than I did 5, 10, 15 years ago
Why me, why me

As I research my disease and know how to deal
I will be sure to share and help another
As it's in my nature to help anyone in need
I will apply everything I've learned from my research
And apply it to my everyday life

Life is not a blaim game
Everyone and everything is on earth at this moment for a reason
Every one is unique in their own right
I am here for a reason
And this I know to be true
And I will fight my way to top

This disease will NEVER hold be back
It's just a little obstacle here and there
But I will overcome
I am now glad its me
It's me and I am happy